My mess-
Not sure where to start.....so I guess the begining is the best place. Not sure if I should or want to air my dirty laundry on the net. But, I need to get it out or I am going to explode. I can not continue to bug friends with all of my drama. So, maybe someone will read this and maybe they wont.
I have been married for 12 years, and have 2 children. About 1 month ago I cheated....I commited adultry. I am not proud of what I did. My wife found out and is considering a divorce. My marriage hasnt been perfect, mainly because of my actions. I did something horrible and I know I have to pay the piper. I want nothing more than to fix this, my wife wants nothing more than to not be near me. We are still in the same house mainly due to our current financial situation. Which is poor and adding to the stress of the situation. I want to go counseling and have been going on my own for the past month. My wife wants nothing to do with it. Right now we are just co-existing. It is rough, I never wanted to hurt her and I dont even know why I even did it honestly other than being selfish. Well I really need to sleep now. If I can it is 10:30 pm and I have been up since 3 am. I havent slept much or ate much over the last month. Part of me hopes to get feed back here. Part of me hopes no one ever sees this.......night all!
